thanks forever:ything
inside her room, she paints me blueSunday, May 16, 2004
4:15am... why am i still up? got home from work at 2:45am... not really tired. not really awake either. sitting around listening to sappy mandy moore songs.
my life is pretty bad. it has been since february. it's kind of hard for me to express how bad i'm doing though. i have no close friends that i open up to. i'm also afraid of scaring people off with my misery. honestly, i've fooled everyone including myself into believing that i'm happy with my current situation.
i want my old job back.
i want my own place again.
i want a relationship again.
i want to be able to pay my bills and still have money to spoil myself.
i want time to myself.
i want to be a grown up again.
i'll be 23 in 4 months, less a day.
my hands are sore.
my life is pretty bad. it has been since february. it's kind of hard for me to express how bad i'm doing though. i have no close friends that i open up to. i'm also afraid of scaring people off with my misery. honestly, i've fooled everyone including myself into believing that i'm happy with my current situation.
i want my old job back.
i want my own place again.
i want a relationship again.
i want to be able to pay my bills and still have money to spoil myself.
i want time to myself.
i want to be a grown up again.
i'll be 23 in 4 months, less a day.
my hands are sore.
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