thanks forever:ything

FROST : HALF-WHOLE


Irreplaceable
are you
but I can always give support

I can give advice
but you
will always find you own ways

I can hold your hand
but you
will always walk alone

So unbearable
is life
you'll have to serve your own ends

I'll be by your side
still you
will always walk alone

So let it go and forgive
there's so much life to be lived

Always
on your own

You're always on your own

--------------------

thanks leslie, you've given me one more reason not to sleep tonight.

ohhhhhhhhhhh shit. i'm falling in love. this could get messy.

...

...

so... a dear friend of mine, a woman i cared deeply for and watched over for the past 4 years, has landed herself in a US federal prison for 8 years as of monday november 15th. i cannot describe how heartwrenched i am. after first hearing the news via 3 phonecalls from different friends/acquaintances, i felt somewhat nonchalant and brushed it off as more rumors or bogus conversational updates. i woke up thursday morning to see a news article my roommate had left on our computer's browser; "Third strike for teen drug smuggler", i didn't have to read past the headline before my world turned dark and silent. shortly after, i left for work, searching for a newsstand to grab a copy of the paper... and there it was, on the front page of the day's paper.

the past 2 days have been a write-off for me. dragging my feet underneath my sagging head. my eyes dimmed and my life on mute.

the only thought i have left, is of my failure. i could have helped her. i could have done something.

i am a defeated man, and redemption has never been my strong suit.

four years of love. two week of tears. i'll be under the golden gates, wishing you the best.

...good luck, winnie.

19 more days, and i'll be tearin' up the streets of san francisco!

...because I can.

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coffeeshop visit part 2:



...trying to juggle; coffee, cigarette, pen, paper, mobile phone, etc.

i love these 'day off' things...



...me and my intimate moments at the coffeeshop.

...great wine
great girl...

had a meeting at 9am today. that was rough.

hi!

i've been drunk for the past 8 days... i'm so drunk right now...
bottle of wine bottle of wine bottle of wine more more more..................

apparently i'm falling for a girl from work... i guess she was around once or twice while i was at the bar after work getting hammered. we must've made plans to get drunk tomorrow night or something. she came up to me today, called me 'honey', and told me she can't wait for tomorrow night... ok. cool. i've known this girl for 8 months, loved her from day one but thought nothing of it other than her being hot. now we're starting to get kinda close and i'm sooooo fucking drunk.

aiite... well... i guess 24 hours and 4 bottles of wine will hold the answers to whatever's on my mind right now.

haven't really done any work lately... been working on the same piece for the past few days... so drunk that my creativity to alcohol level in my blood is like 1 to 400... but yea... i dunno...